The Gentleman

You know I slipped into a slight depression this afternoon, I was sitting at my desk looking at my life for 2013 and how it started. Then I came out of my state of mind, and noticed I am a happy Man and I shouldn’t let nothing stop that feeling, so what I came into the new year alone, so what I had to make some changes to my life, so what!!! But with those changes I am still the man I need to be for me, and I had to understand that everyone does not deserve the Love I have in my heart and may not be able to handle it. You see I am a very strong Man and it is rare that I get down in the dumps about anything because I take all negative energy that I get from life and turn it into something I that can make me stronger and I have to be real I have never understood where that came from. As u know most people wine, cry, hold on to things and let it change them into something there not and then after they go threw what ever there feel omg, they say ” it happen for a reason “, well not me because I move on fast because I refuse to give someone or something a part of my heart that does not deserve it.

My grandfather told me once that ” what every you choose to let go, may have already let u go ” and I didn’t really understand that until I got older ( like most of his advice ) you see he never let me cry over spilled milk, and told me life is a lesson. And u can either stay on the same lesson of move on to the next lesson. And I have to admit it’s not always that easy to turn away and walk away but his saying is true, because if the person or the thing I cared about would not have made me think about walking away. I am a very loyal person to things, I love knowing that I put true time and effort into something, but if im not getting it in return I am not scared to do what I have to do and make a change for myself. This does not make me cold hearted it just says I will not be stopped by someone or something in my path that does not want to be there…

But I have to say that I am on a different path then most, well now because I am ready to be married, I am ready to give the secret part of me to a woman that wants it. And I don’t care if I have to put her on my back and be her foundation, because the way I was raised a Man does that, he is the King to his Queen and anything she needs a King is there. So if she is weak I will be stronger, if she needs Love she will get spoiled, if she needs my touch her body will exhausted from it. See my Queen will get this rare gift I have not fully shared with no one and as long as she respects it I will always be her guardian, she will always stand in my shadow, I will always fight to give her my last breath… So when I say I am happy know that my happiness is pure ..